terça-feira, 6 de dezembro de 2011

Rethinking Bliss




Started pondering about bliss this night...
Trying to digest what I feel...
Don't think the feeling has ever been so great,
so powerful and so ill-timed as it is now...
Words escape me, like the sun-born rays burning my skin...

It has been silence, sweet, wonderful silence!
Her eyes breathing on my neck in the dark of night..
A lonely smile... Perfume polluting my bed...

sábado, 13 de agosto de 2011

Swatting Flies with chocolate and guilt

I've wished for things to say that made some sort of sense.

That drunken epiphany that translates into poetry!

Nothing comes to mind other than my hand catching air, searching for that fly I feel buzzing around here.

Myself in the mirror of the forgotten honor, of the unspoken gesture. That buzzing, annoying and unheard.

So I buzz around my reflection, trying desperately to grasp all that I see, all that inadequacy filling up my everyday!

Now I buzz, here and there, wishing I could have someone around to care enough, to take a second and try swatting me from the air...

Just a fly buzzing around, undignified and unheard. So quick and foreseeing.

My reflection looking back at me, hairy and strange, lost in the vomit of disparity and wealth, all things not beautiful and free...
... All things not in the my niece's world, free of politics, religion, dogma, envy and greed.
____________________

I gave her some chocolate before lunch once (she was 4) and mom found out right in the middle of her first tasting of it, oh such ecstasy and delight! After a few hard words of "your uncle is in deep trouble for giving you this", that little girl holding her newly tasted chocolate, proposed that if I could be left out of trouble she would gladly put it down and wait for her salty lunch.

I can't think of a better example of pure ethics..







sexta-feira, 20 de maio de 2011

Continuo acreditando que tenho uma verdade para vir.
Sei que tudo é merda hoje em dia, e sei que não sou o resultado do belo.
Sei que vejo total abstinência da ética, me consumindo, nos consumindo.
Fico querendo apostar em minha indignação.
Fico querendo apostar em minha "apoética" (ou dispoética?).
Não sei mais ser poeta nesse mundo de vômito. Não sei mais.
Tenho raiva e desgosto por essa roubalheira. Por essa amnésia do trabalho digno.
Da politica digna.. Do verdadeiro amor pelo certo.

Hoje tive uma pequena renovação... Uma renovação espiritual pode-se dizer.
Uma musica... Um mantra:

_________________
Musica por Leo Fressato e A Banda Mais Bonita da Cidade

Meu amor, essa é a ultima oração pra salvar seu coração..
Coração não é tão simples quanto pensa:
Nele cabe o que não cabe na dispensa.
Cabe o meu amor, cabem 3 vidas inteiras!
Cabe uma penteadeira...
Cabe nos dois, cabe até o meu amor...
... essa é a ultima oração para salvar seu coração..

segunda-feira, 25 de abril de 2011

Ghosts in the machine



Can't really think of a reason for being seen in this world.
Much has been said about the value of friends and the like, but seriously, what is real in there?
What else can I expect, other than the occasional favor or loan?
What else is there in this social realm that I should be counting on?

People talk about this answer to loneliness as if it were set, like a clock.
This empty faith in the will of some deity as a replacement to their lack of true companionship...
... True love...
True will towards a better tomorrow. A swift and hard shift in what defines us as a race.
Something beyond Kant.

How high is the cost of this before us as a global community?

I think that being understood for who I am is over rated (or over stated in my silence),
especially when considering the alternative: being right about it all in a vegetative sea of men.

I know I have no answers to give. I know my ideas aren't answers on their own.
Much less my questions; just as much as this is not a poem or comeback.

This is a statement. A statement of my lack of things to say when looking at the world.

Our wrongs are so obvious to me and yet I feel like I am insane and alone in my thoughts.

I feel like there is no one else around to echo my horizon, my soul.

All the things, all shortcomings of us, all the reasons...
All unheard, unseen, or worst, driven to the oblivion of "the socially inadequate and insane".
The ghosts in the machine.
The socially inapt and distinct, flying under the radar, never braking laws,
never committing any crimes and never, ever, ever being moral.

The atheists.

My father: myself.
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Based on this video

sábado, 27 de novembro de 2010

Timeless

So here it is, the full spectrum of my colors.
Here I tell you I love you more than anything.
Here I tell you about my unique ability..
My Ability to not care about time, about the past.

Here is my space, empty...
... Of fear, of doubt, of regrets..
I know we are history, and I know we are chemistry..
I know we are pure, naked.. No lies, just surprises.

And I can tell you know it too, I can tell...
I can feel your skin alarming my heart, my head.
Something inside tells me to go with the sunset,
something tells me to go with my soul hidden behind your moon.

All I know is that you are my timeless love.
My timeless passion... My time, throughout the years...
You are my missing link... Yet I wake up alone.
You are my battle for sanity!

You are the only one.

domingo, 19 de setembro de 2010

Inadequacy of Eras

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AFVlJAi3Cso

I can feel Eddie's words, in that paragraph, deep underneath my bones, like poison.
I feel my blood in need of her..
I can feel my soul screaming, reverberating from far within the black whole of my memories of us...
Of us, of all things that were, all things that were.

I can tell this tale of much more than everything:
Of inadequacy of Eras, of just plain old bad timing..
I can feel that cold of lost chances, everyday, every night, every time I smell her voice, or taste her scent or catch that glimpse of her wondrous soft blues at her door step...
Every time I fall upon my pillow and stupidly hope for dreams...
Every time I'm alone.

terça-feira, 20 de julho de 2010

Wordless Poet

I wish I could stay free from that impregnating scent of ancient, true love!
Here I am, before a taste of bliss, with those pores staring at me from her neck.
That hand, moving around her perfume. That hand, conducting the orchestra in my chest.
Those eyes.. Those eyes...

Can't leave it alone, this decade of revolutions in my soul, in that everything I gave.
In that everything that I have now, all mine, all mine! All ready now, to be part, not alone, not given, not lost...

... Poet without words...

quarta-feira, 7 de julho de 2010

Our Fathers



There is no paradise, no hell, no river or god...
There are memories, feelings, moments that define who we are.

We have our fears and uncertainties, our moments of doubt.
We have our dreams, our history.

Our Fathers.

There is peace and something divine behind our dreams!
Behind our journey in search of a future.

So I am Atheist and alone.
So I am the great lord of flying plastic in the windy, dusty sunset.

So I am, revolutions, a turning point, never so much it, never again.

I am the illusion of magic and lies. I am this thing, a thing that can fly.

sábado, 19 de junho de 2010

We are Poets!



There are never enough words floating around.
We have much yet to see, we see much yet to tell.
Our work must be of devious words: like my clouds of colorful lips.
We must look out into the sunset of those infinite notes behind our hearts.

Those songs and blood. Our very tears spilled on paper.
We have in us the purpose of creating illusions and absurd truths.
Through our puzzles, through our games...
Through the essence that evaporates around our ink.

We are powerful and unique, we carry with our craft, words responsible.
We carry our ways and stories... Coins. Words. Inventions.
We are free! No need for conventional language.
No need for rules or laws to control our "blisstning" nascence.

We are trapped within our unexplained souls...
We are trapped within our words and silent gaps.
We play with rime and structure without needing them.
We have the gift of true freedom:

We are poets.

quinta-feira, 22 de abril de 2010

Sail Away



I wanted to see our every new start float around my screen...
I thought about you these past few countless nights..
So now my tears are responsible for torrential rains.
So now I know I can't fool this blinking cursor for much longer.

My ears have given space for the many explosions in my head to steam away.
Not much remains to recognize after so many years in my cage for the heart.

At least I know I no longer need your flesh against my mind...
I just want to be free of you.
Just want to sail away now...

sexta-feira, 2 de abril de 2010

The Lover



I am so fucking sick of all that political-religious-cultural bull shit behind these tight minded conservative fuckers around the world, that I can't even sleep in peace..
No reason to swallow nazi propaganda anymore, people.. There is no fucking savior or miracle, no great entity of omniscience! There is only one thing:

The lack of thought behind any small goodness..
We all must break the barrier of morality through love, truth and respect...
Through a pure ethical embrace of the things that define us..
We must learn to love unconditionally (fow evah, evah evah, evah evah, evah)..
Only then we will start to save and fix everything else!

This is a lesson we cannot learn through repression (from rules or religion or fear of social unacceptability).. There is no rule book or set of guide lines in this utopia...
There is only space for that blinding truth watching over the pure of heart... The truly ethical but rarely moral...

The poet, thoughtful and atheist in all of us... The lover.

quarta-feira, 17 de março de 2010

A Post Card



Behind these words you'll find my sunset on the beach
Just a small taste of what is beyond my heart..

Behind these words you'll find my skin, toasted under
those memories of the love we had, of our scent,
engraved in my mind..

Behind these words is the post card of lonely poet,
sleepless and betrayed by your promises.

Behind these words, the last glimmer of passion
I still carry inside.. Deep inside..

Behind these words, I am naked, raw, I am pure ink.
Behind these words you'll find so much more than dreams.

Behind these words you'll find what you lost long ago.

sexta-feira, 22 de janeiro de 2010

La Javanaise - Madeleine Peyroux




J'avoue j'en ai bave pas vous mon amour
Avant d'avoir eu vent de vous mon amour
Ne vous deplaise
En dansant la Javanaise
Nous nous aimions
Le temps d'une chanson

A votre avis qu'avons-nous vu de l'amour
De vous a moi vous m'avez eu mon amour
Ne vous deplaise
En dansant la Javanaise
Nous nous aimions
Le temps d'une chanson

Helas avril en vain me voue a l'amour
J'avais envie de voir en vous cet amour
Ne vous deplaise
En dansant la Javanaise
Nous nous aimions
Le temps d'une chanson

La vie ne vaut d'etre vecue sans amour
Mais c'est vous qui l'avez voulu mon amour
Ne vous deplaise
En dansant la Javanaise
Nous nous aimions
Le temps d'une chanson

Burning Jazz


So I can try to behave, go on by the rules..
So I can be one more that swallows whatever.

So I can remember to love...

So I can be love, without the sweet touch of warm skin:
Of painfully planned touches that take me in,
that make me a believer, sufferer..

So I am, lost in all the time burned between us..
Now I am, in you, memory of perfume and great wine..
I am a world, lost, never again found..

I am jazz that burns paper and nothing more..

Poetry in the Dark



There is much pain in loving a cloud:
A crazy lack of gravity…
Delightful torture: this town…

So, in flight, I breathe the beauty of awakening,
the loneliness of discontinued dreams.
Here drifts man of passion and lies…

Here dwells demon of enlightenment…
In the clouds, in the souls,
In the unknown… in my infinite secrets…

My tasteful words…
This delicious ink…
My poetry in the dark…

terça-feira, 27 de outubro de 2009

One more time to know me!



Touch me!

terça-feira, 20 de outubro de 2009

Dungeon



acho q a língua é deficiente... por mais que exista poesia,
acho q outros sensos (exteriores ao nosso interpretar, a hermeneutica)
são tão profundos, se não mais, que nossa própria imaginação...
acho q não há como definir-me em palavras (ou mais ninguém, por assim dizer)
somos todos pinturas e musicas e sabores... somos poesia e carne
somos perfume, silêncios
olhares
somos vontades digeridas

jamais expelidas
somos cada cabelo sobre o braço... um arrepio
somos horizontes e um grão de areia
somos mares de agua salina... somos sedentos
somos perdidos, consumidos, somos paixão, silenciosa, notívaga...
suspiros e sonhos nem sempre reais:
somos apneia...
me sinto carne muida
um ventilador de raios solares...

O amanhecer...

uma multidão de seguintes... seguidores
sou a fila do banco
me sinto em meio de mortos vivos
me sinto perdido em ilha de 1001 prazeres
me sinto só

sábado, 5 de setembro de 2009

Real


Quero ser real!
Algo tangível...
Mais um por do sol.
Um luar talvez?

Quero ser o horizonte, em imagem...


Quero sonhar de menos...
Quero ser marciano, longe daqui!

Quero amar de novo (para sempre)!!!
Doce sabor de paixão...

Quero ter outro dia de herói...
Como aquele de nossos sonhos!

Quero tingir mais que papel
(talvez o ar??)

Quero ser real...

domingo, 23 de agosto de 2009

Cotton



I am not a fool..
I am not the one who sees only the given truth...
I can't go on cheating my self..
Not at this point...

So now I have true joy...
Now I have those eyes to bring me around..
Like Amy, "I'm no good"...
So now I'm stuck, now I'm gravitating into you...

Into this bizzare truth.

I'm done...

I can't play like this anymore...
I want to love your every fiber...
I want to love your hair.

I want to give into Dutch skin,
I want a chance to show you a diferent path...
The path you have in you: the path of no lies...
I see moments spent with futile things, just like you have...
For so long...

I am just sick of going back.

I want to go forward.
I want your smile in my morning.
And in my night...

I want you all over this cotton covering my bed.

sábado, 22 de agosto de 2009

∞


Eu já amei o belo.
A mente distante,
a pele fumegante:
O beijo mais puro.

Eu já fiz parte da simetria.
Degustei lábios mediterrâneos.

Eu me joguei sobre o
deserto sem alguma garantia.
Perdi todo o tempo...
Tempo que não possuía.

Eu fiz o amor de fato.
Transformei desta dor, ímpeto:
Ato.